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Tuesday, September 15th, 2009
September 15th, 2009 / 10:54pm - random thoughts - facts of life
environment changes.
life changes.
people changes.
road changes.
everything changes every second, every minute, every hour, every day.

people change for the good.
some change for the bad.

i want to be like the sea suddenly.
so carefree.
but i don't want to be the ship on the lonesome sea.
where you feel so helpless and lost.

suddenly i want to sing oldies songs.
unchained melody, wind of change, careless whisper, without you, only you . . . .
just keep striking into my head.

a person asked me: are you afraid of dark?
i told the person i am afraid of dark because i can't see you.
the person asked again: are you afraid of dying?
i replied: i am not afraid of dying but i am afraid of not being able to see you again.


i got a netbook.
thanks to baby =)
riding was alright.
just that today i am riding manual and i became a dangerous hazard on the road. LOL.
thanks to my stupid auto bike head lamp.
the  bulb fused =(
( i don't know i use it correctly, but whatever)

tomorrow taking leave.
going to suntan cum swimming.
baby's going for her TP test tomorrow.
all the best baby.
you can do better then me =)
quick. get a licence.
then we can drive together.
send me home when i am drunk! haha.
so cool right !! ahaha

okay. tomorrow waking up early for breakfast then off to swimming and tanning
while baby gotta be at BBDC.
love. you can do it =)
i know you can =)

current mood: okay
Kaypos [3] CMNT
Monday, September 7th, 2009
September 7th, 2009 / 11:00pm - another worry.
today, cikgu herman didn't come. so another cikgu took sharifah & me.

when to a bike shop & I fall in love with this honda big bike.
it cost around 7k for 2nd hand. sporty too!

I want to save moNey & buy it. I hope i'll strike lottery, like so hard man! haha.

I show baby the photos of it and baby say not bad :)

today dismiss super early. took mrt down to meet baby.

had subWay for dinner & headed down to her hall cos baby forgot to bring the lappy charger out.

tomorrow will be a big day for baby. hope everything goes real smooth between the talk.
I know you're stress over it. no worries. everything will be fine.

just pray hard for it okay?!

will wait for you and the outcome:)

current mood: hopeful
Saturday, September 5th, 2009
September 5th, 2009 / 9:27pm

sometimes is nice chilling out at a pub alone.
i am now at sentosa.
waiting for love.
she's attending her ntu sports camp ballroom function.
went delifrance after sending her to rasa sentosa.
now chilling out at cool deck and listening to jazz by the beach live band alone.
just ordered 2 hoegaarden and fries to keep me company.
feeling a bit high.
okay. zhi high!!
drink too fast already i guess.
can't even text properly. LOL!

looking at 1 adult couple dancing  just now reallly makes me feel like going to the club and dance.
baby is leaving her party damn early and meet me =)

okay. i gotta off the lappy.
i want to tan tomorrow.


current mood: high
September 5th, 2009 / 12:05pm
 yesterday was a slacky day at opa.
rotting and moulding.
didn't ride at all.
only helped out in pushing the bikes to the service centre.
sweaty and tiring =(

headed back home and bathed.
went town and meet baby.
baby wanted to get a crumpler laptop,
so we went paragon and get it.
followed by dinner at just acia.
we ordered a lot of food man! LOL!!!
left abit. hahaha.

watched UP and feel like sleeping.
night shift was tiring.
now at lecture.
crash baby's lecture.
baby's studying and i am facebooking and blogging. LOL!

hopefully, tonight got people accompany me to sentosa.
if not, i will be super bored =(
shall see shall see.

i know that i've neglected you all the time.
i am sorry.
will treat you better =)

current mood: good
Thursday, September 3rd, 2009
September 3rd, 2009 / 7:46pm
today 1st half of riding was alright.
went T2 for breakfast.
sharifah and the rest keep saying i eat alot. LOL!

being a pillion can be really tiring.
my thigh cramp man!!!
during break, we went mustafa.
during 2nd half, we are being filmed for riding.
like some MTV. LOL!
okay, NOT FUNNY!

i have been hanging out at starbucks lately.
don't feel like going home so early.
sitting at starbucks and doing some facebook quizzes, blogging, sending of song, web browsing and gaming.
so stupid right. LOL! hahahz

anyway, i saw a netbook and feel like buying it.
3 places selling at different price.
courts = $499 but only black color, add $99 for 2years warranty
harvey norman = $599,
popular = $599, 6 cells battery .. .. .. 
i also can't remember all of it though.
(in deep thoughts)

i want to get a personal lappy cos i can have my own privacy.
no intruders and not fearing of anything.
tomorrow won't be riding i guess.
last day for siti and widya.
i want to go jogging after work,
do some push ups, dipping and crutches.
i want to go tanning and overseas =(

jill, jolene and irene are asking me to go chiangmai, phuket and bangkok with them during dec.
hmm. i am thinking whether i should go or not.
so many things in my mind right now.
god, when can i stop having all this stress and thoughts....


current mood: grumpy
Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009
September 2nd, 2009 / 8:15pm
lately a lot of things have happened.
after riding,
dinner then go home.

riding was fun.
ride at around 100km/h
2nd half, do pillioning.
my leg hurts. LOL!
after this week, the two division girls going back to their own division.
left sharifah and me.
hope it will be fun.

now at starbucks chilling out.
i want to go tanning.
MR SUN please come out!!! 

current mood: calm
Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
August 22nd, 2009 / 9:19pm - REVIVE =)
this blog will be revive again =)
(for once)

times flies really fast.
i went grandparents house today and was talking to them about my childhood time.
21 years ago, i am still nothing.
fighting for survivor to get to the place 'EARTH'.
i became a champion and beat the rest.
just like everyone =)

grandparents and me talked about how they look after me when i am young.
how worried they were that time because i've childhood asthma.
i am a frequent NUH patient. haha.

now that i am 21 years old.
i am rebellious like usual.
going against my parents for what they don't want me to do.
i know my stand.
i have very strong stand.
unlike some people.

well lately, alot of things have happened around me.
relationship, work and family.

my 8 month plus relationship failed with this girl.
time we spent together was really good yet with ups and down.
i tattooed her name and she tattooed a J.
are we silly or what?
i asked myself this question a lot of times.
well, is not the moment of lovey dovey.
is the sacrifices that she made.
people told me, you'll sure regret about it.
oh well.
the reasons why we broke up is because of her parents.
and i guess there's third party?!

i am struggling very hard during the break up period.
my friends standing by me.
i am very grateful to have such friends.
encouraging me and all.

everyone tells me the same thing.
move on.
at that time, i don't listen.
but then, one day i finally wake up.
i ask myself why am i so stupid to be the one so upset and all.
when she don't even care or bother.
when she can get attached with a guy like so god damn fast.
she can be so happy with her bf.
why should i even get heart ache?
blah blah blah.

yes, i have moved on.
i am together with this girl.
this time round is not my age. haha
she's nice, sweet, caring, thoughful, understanding ... ...

i told her that i've mood swings which can be really bad and sudden.
i told her that i am hot tempered and all.
she said: yes, i experience all that. (LOL)
and i asked her this: you can stand my mood swing arh?

she replied : ''i can stand you mood swing.
i like you for your good and bad and accept who you are.
i'll try to understand your anger and let you vent if you need.
that's what gf are for''.

the things she said really touched me.
there's more though =)

have been learning bike now.
it's alright.
gotta get a bike for transport though.


yesterday, reached home and town with love.
dinner at bak kut teh stall.
but we still prefer the one at my house =)
walked to O Bar from clarke quay.
reached around 1020.
my 2 friends came around 1045 and followed by nas and friend at around 12.
it was great and madness.
dancing and playing with nas like nobody's business. LOL!

i was damn high.
shared cab home with my 2 friends.
stayed over at love's hostel =)
she looked after me.
i puked alittle though. LOL!
mixing of drinks = wasted. haha
but it wasn't that bad right, baby?!
wake up around 8 and bathed.

cab-ed to Jurong west and eat our favourite fish slice soup and vegetarian mee hoon =)
followed by searching of things.
after that, baby went town to meet her mom, grandma and sis.
that's when i went to grandparent's house.

met up with love and went west mall for dinner =)
sent her back home cos she's super tired and not enough sleep.
now she is deeply asleep after yesterday.

tomorrow will be going sentosa.
our weekend hangout place =)
can't wait for it.
mr sun, please visit sentosa and stay there until 5pm!!!

current mood: loved
Saturday, July 25th, 2009
July 25th, 2009 / 8:43pm - tell me
i am so tired each day.
can't get enough sleep.
never ending things in my mind.

tell me.
tell me what to do?


current mood: blank
Sunday, July 5th, 2009
July 5th, 2009 / 1:17pm - i wonder
sometimes i really wonder why is it so hard to take initiative?

sometimes i wonder why is it so hard to let people know what your intention is?
and all they think is your intention is bad?

sometimes i just wonder

current mood: restless
Sunday, June 21st, 2009
June 21st, 2009 / 3:19pm
hello i'm back.
seldom update my personal blog due to some reason.
tomorrow working. yawn!
gonna strive for excellence.

yesterday went out with jill to J8 to find boxer.
then to tcm at novena followed by dinner at subway.
i ate foot long cold cut trio by myself. LOL!

headed down to somewhere else.
back home and online.

okay. i am going to take a short nappy then go out.

current mood: tired
Saturday, June 20th, 2009
June 20th, 2009 / 10:45pm - triple D.
drink, drank, drunk.
it have been quite long since i last use this 3 'D'.

i'm upset.
the word that was used on me, hurts me a lot.
it affects me.
i feel like i'm being stabbed thousands and millions of times.
i'm speechless.
i'm left speechless.

current mood: crushed
Kaypos [1] CMNT
Sunday, June 7th, 2009
June 7th, 2009 / 11:52am - trip to bangkok & others
day 1

dad & his frens booked a van to send us to changi airport. ached there ard 0830. our flight was at 1030.
total of 13 person to this trip. reached bkk airport at ard 1245. took a private van to our hotel. had late lunch at emerald hotel & it started to pour very heavily. went back hotel & bathe. dinner at one of the crab restaurant. then mom, damien & me went to the night market to get him a slipper because his slippers broke. on our way there, we saw elephant and bought 3 pkts of sugar cane to feed it. damien bought a pkt of fried worms & he munch it happily.
back to hotel, bathe & rest. couldn't sleep a was tossing & turnin ard.

day 2
I woke up a lot of time because of the time difference there. thou its only 1hr different.
had breakfast at the hotel café. followed by mrt to chi lom to pray. walked down to mbk shopping centre. didn't get anything. time was quite rushing for us. took cab back & was caught in the jam for nearly 1hr. no wonder bangkok is famous for its traffic jam! lol.
back to hotel. supposed to go massage but my head is spinning so dropped the idea. slack while waiting for the rest to get ready. dinner at a seafood restaurant. drank chivas. damien bought a pkt of fried cricket & I tried one. super gross. smell of cockroach & I swallowed it down with my chivas. back to hotel. rent the internet for 30mins & back to room. slept at around 1 p1us.

day 3
breakfast at the hotel café & its the same menu for 3 days. took a private van to chinatown. walked ard & went to a shark fin restaurant for lunch. back to hotel, went for thai massage & dinner at other seafood restaurant. drank chivas again. reached hotel ard 1plus.

day 4
woke up at 9 and breakfast at hotel lobby. took mrt dwn to mbk. Bought a singlet & necklaces.
rushed back to hotel, bathe & check out. took the private van to bkk airport. dinner at the airport & took the plane back.
reached home ard 1 & unpacked my stufs.
on the phone awhile & couldn't sleep.

yesterday, met up with jill & went suntec then bishan. headed home after that & online chatting till 2plus.
slept at around 4 & woke up at 10+.

tomorrow & tuesday on night shift followed by 2 days off. sama sama as you :)
Saturday, June 6th, 2009
June 6th, 2009 / 2:25pm - darn!!
I blogged the whole thailand trip out & it suddenly disappeared. arghh. wait till I get back my laptop then i'll blog about my trip. cause I'm using my o2 hp. pretty hard to blog.
Monday, June 1st, 2009
June 1st, 2009 / 10:59am
im at bf's house now.
going out later before i leave sg tomorrow.
1st time going out with her alone. haah.
bf, are you happpy??

alright, retards going off.
love ya still

current mood: calm
Sunday, May 31st, 2009
May 31st, 2009 / 12:02pm
thanks for the fish sliced soup but I didn't eat it though.

don't waste time anymore. wake up, will you!!!

enough is enough.
nomore contact anymore. I'm firm about it. that's it.

for my mich & me, we'll settle it. stop poking your nose into our business.

i've been really nice & tolerant about you. you're nice but it won't work. I'm telling you straight 'i don't like you AT ALL!!!'
thank you
May 31st, 2009 / 10:49am
I'm hungry. I'm tired. my stomach is growling. I'm not eating. haiz.

sick and running away.

2days more before I fly off. bye
Monday, May 25th, 2009
May 25th, 2009 / 9:54pm
yesterday went JB with my family.
dad drove and it was heavy traffic.
had our all time favourite : BAH KUT TEH!
followed by hair cut.
shopped around hotel plaza.
had thai massage with dad and mom while jamiel and damien went to the arcade.

today went AH sports medical centre for check up.
next monday going for physiotherapy.
tomorrow i'm working.
in service =(

current mood: sian
Kaypos [1] CMNT
Sunday, May 17th, 2009
May 17th, 2009 / 3:04pm

went bugis yesterday before heading to work.
yesterday reached home around 4am.
deployment was alright.

stayed at home and waiting to rot.
tomorrow i'm working again.
most probably going to kath house to take the shades from her.
shall see how.


current mood: indescribable
Friday, May 15th, 2009
May 15th, 2009 / 8:43pm
well, i seldom blog at this url already.
but once awhile i'll blog here.
kept skipping my meals.
or should i say i really have no appetite.
yesterday drove van,
came back and was told that the van have a big scatch at the driver's side.
haiz. so today stay inside office the whole day.
tomorrow report to work at 8pm.


current mood: indescribable
Sunday, May 10th, 2009
May 10th, 2009 / 1:35pm
lost of speech.
lost my gf.
lost of words.
things happened so fast.
because of parents.
same old drama rama.

TheShow.mp3 - Lenka
Kaypos [2] CMNT
Thursday, April 30th, 2009
April 30th, 2009 / 8:46pm
hey peepers!
wednesday i didn't went for my ippt.
was on my way to base and i alighted at woodlands.
stomach cramp =(
called the trainer and i postponed my ippt to next wednesday.

today woke up at around 12 then rushed to expo to meet don & von.
metro sales but i didn't buy anything.
headed down to tampines one.
bought 2 polo ts and 1 long sleeve.
spent around $80 on 3 items.
went back home after that.

just came back from the market.
bought dinner and came back home.
now at home waiting .. .. ..
tomorrow will be a Public Holiday.
and is my little bro birthday.
haiz. i hope either tomorrow or saturday i have a date!!!!


current mood: full
Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
April 28th, 2009 / 12:33pm
lately i've been looking for hp.
can anyone help me out?!
what hp is goood??!
tell me tell me?!!
oh should i get a iphone when i recontract and upgrade my hp line to $80plus then sell the brand new iphone away?
after all, my this 6110 still usable and it's just that the battery is giving me problem.
shit, im so troubled. argghh.

supposed to go tanning at OPA with jill but the sun wasn't good.
i heard thuder when i'm at the lrt.
but i still take the mrt until i reached marsiling.
it starts to pour so i went back home from marsiling.
today is the 2nd day of my leave,
i spent my time watching TLW S6 and watching table of glory.
super bored.

tomorrow is my ippt.
i don't know how will i do.
i didn't train for so long, so long.
please, please let me get a gold.
god bless.

current mood: hopeful
Kaypos [1] CMNT
Saturday, April 25th, 2009
April 25th, 2009 / 11:50pm
went jurong west for brunch with parents and jamiel.
headed home and slept for around 2 hours before jillian called me.
followed by a call from TL.
he asked me to submit my personal particulars to him.
since im not going to work on monday,
i decided to go back today.
met up with JJ and he sent me there.
at the same time, he also need to give TL and team-mates things that he bought from TW.

left base and down to J8 with jillian.
walked around looking at hp.
left around 7plus.
went vivo after that.
saw team 4, TL there.
my god, i was shocked because of some reasons. lol

anyway, tomorrow going out with the whole family, grandparents, uncle, aunty and her children.
having early celebration for mothers day.
alright, bye.

current mood: calm
Friday, April 24th, 2009
April 24th, 2009 / 8:59pm
i'm inside the office for 2 days.
went back camp for training yesterday.
only nas and me turned up.

today work is super slacking.
i wasn't doing anything.
sit there and do my own things.
eat and eat non stop.
taking 3 days leave on mon to wed.
next wed is my ippt.
at OPA.
god, i haven't been running for few months!!!! damn!!!
just bless me

current mood: nervous
Sunday, April 19th, 2009
April 19th, 2009 / 10:17pm
in total shock.
just any word you can put it into me.
i can't believe it.
it's really like inside the drama series.
my god.
how can that happen?
i really hope it will turn out good.
pray hard.
god bless.

tomorrow is morning shift.
i just hope i can sleep tonight.
go away bad dreams!!!

current mood: shocked
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